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Jaundiced
13:32
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Silence, the autumn arrives
I couldn't remember how melancholic it could be
Full of memories, slowly turn in ash
Printed leaves have the past
The night finds all that's gone
in dreams from people forever lost
No answer for the tears that once fed this fucking ground
Smoke curtains fill the sky
Shades burn their letters outside
Trying to remember the sender's face
Cowards hiding their heads even at night
carrying their mistakes, maybe they were right
I wanted to follow the light but it burned my eyes
accustomed to the dark, the shine turns me blind
Isolated and cold, I remember this place
Unknown location, where I lost myself again
A starlit sky, the trees are ready to die
Noiseless, they're ready to go forever away
They don't know if they will born again
In scattered leaves, our dreams refrain
I go outside, with all my fears
I try to find my way to come back again
Praying in silence, I hope to get lost
before accepting the truth, I failed
Now I am here, jaundiced
Waiting to cry out here
Where the wind once blew
My soul surely left that day
I wish to burn the hell inside of me
My mind, my punishment
Alone in the dark, myself is consumed
Now I am here, jaundiced
Waiting to cry out here
Where the wind once blew
My soul surely left that day
I wish to burn the hell inside of me
My mind, my punishment
Alone in the dark, myself is consumed
What remains, oh yesteryear
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2. |
Without You
09:37
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You are gone
These strangers
Only see us
Please don't go
I need you here
I need to see you
Your warm now turns cold
I don't want to see that hole
Your eyes, closed
Your lips, now gray
Please, wake up
Look at me
tell me
(something)
I'll stay here
Waiting for you
If you open
Your eyes someday
I'll stay here
Waiting for you
If you open
Your eyes someday
Please, wake up
Please, don't go
Please, wake up
Please, don't go
Wake
Up
Don't
Go
Away...
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3. |
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My hands are caressing the stones
Their coldness piercing my skin and creeping to my heart
The obscurity mixing black and gray
My blinded eyes open theirs
Everything there is full of sorrow
Everything there is crying
Forever lost
I take your hands; i follow you to a better place
I take your hands; let me stay by your side
I take your hands; i follow you to a better place
I take your hands; let me stay with you
Her Ghost Haunts these walls
Her Ghost Haunts these walls
Oh no
Among these ruins of our life, I walk slowly,
sufferings tearing me, Flashes hurt my mind
I see you everywhere,
i can't forget you
The rain is falling out there,
the wind is whispering
The world's turning dark,
the ambient cold
I feel your presence,
your arms around me
Your head on my back
I killed myself
I killed myself
to join you
I take your hands; i follow you to a better place
I take your hands; let me stay by your side
I take your hands; i follow you to a better place
I take your hands; let me stay with you
(Armony 12th)
Her Ghost Haunts these walls
I take your hands;
I take your hands;
I take your hands; Her Ghost Haunts these walls
I take your hands; let me stay by your side
I take your hands; Her Ghost Haunts these walls
I take your hands; Her Ghost Haunts these walls
I take your hands
I take your hands; let me stay with you
to join you
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4. |
Hopelessness
09:45
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Life goes, lies come
No answers from my lord for his forgotten son
Shattered, bitter, and tired I remain
Hopelessness invades every part of my brain
I only know I've been refusing my cure
Refusing the life, follow the death spoor
It burned my eyes, every step closer to nowhere
When I lost my stride I forgot I was scared
*Eternal monstrosity inside of my soul
I wait for my death, I'm the destiny doll
Crying for nothing until my eyes got dry
Now in the depths of my mind, I won't fucking try
Every lesson I had to unlearn
Now to walk back is what I yearn
My dreams lie in my broken hands
Everything dies in these desert lands
(Emptiness followed me
Darkness enveloped me
My hopes abandoned me
I am no longer here)
Everything changes even when I Do nothing
I won't get back anything, my life still clocking
hopelessness, I just can scream in the dark
The better times have passed and they never come back
I prayed so many times in search of hope
The only they give me is my own rope
I'm all alone taking the last glance
Trying to live after I die inside
Now you can watch how I'm falling
Away from your grasp, you watch how I'm drowning
I'm relaxed and smiling when I feel the water
Years ago, to me nothing more matter
So long time ago I broke my vows
Everything I love tuned into dust
Every fault take a part of me
It let me empty, shattered, and full of fear
Every loved one turned into a stranger
My disassociation started to getting stronger
I yearned the help but I couldn't cry out
My cowardice take me and crush me from inside
When I drink the bottle my happiness reigns
Ruthless sensation running in my veins
Too coward to die now, afraid of my life
Thru isolation, I learn how to survive
What I think helps me to cure myself
Now is a vice burned in the shelf
Things I love sometimes feels as a load
What will I do if I can't take this anymore
You gonna judge me is nothing new to me
Every decision is not as it had to be
I started to hate since I stopped to cry
I can't do it, something inside me is dry
There is no tragedy to write about
Is just a voice and every day it screams loud
I have control of me but I always harm me
I don't know what happens but I don't feel free
I blame the world for taking what is mine
It took my illusions and buried on the ground
I turn addicted to burning my life
It has more sense than I ever had
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Everything is not as it has to be
My daydreaming never had a guarantee
Wishing black and grey turn into color
A happiness minute equals an one empty hour
I put my gaze beyond the horizon
the sun is too up, it won't infected with my poison
Yearning possibilities of a plenty life
If my days won't burning me too hard
I walk in the night carrying my mistakes
My expectations and my mental aches
My memories diluted, is real or my fiction?
Apparently is better forgot my futile affliction
I won't spend my time, I know I won't change
People tried to help me but I turn estrange
I can't start bitching that I ended alone
coz inside of my head I'm glad they're gone
Stop to look at me as if I'd wish this all happen
No one warns you that your life could be befallen
I tried to go outside but I'm a coward
Don't worry you know I ain't go so far
I've never told anyone about my illness
I just sat in my room to drink until unconsciousness
Is too late to talk with anyone or is it in vain?
Coz all I want is to hide me again
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5. |
Chasing The Sun
12:46
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Chase the sun but it's going away
Lost in your memories, all in faded days
Trapped in a cage of what should it be
All nightmares are coming that won't let you be free
Passed the years, goodbye turned not so hard
Accepting the truth triggers the void inside
It's easy to deny and painful to face life
I chased the sun when I was surrounded by dark
adversity rains all over, fair, unfair, it neverminds
Screaming from the void when myself was blind
I prayed every day and found no more answers
I moved forward, it's late to turn back
I fought so many times against my unswerving fate
Defeated and empty, I remain and await
Tired in this epoch of indifference
The purpose was washed away, all lost its sense
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They take my mind is too late for me now
My self grows in apathy, it turns me raw
Condemned and numbered, like everyone else
The things that make me special make my brain melt
Innocence is gone, rotten in a desperate soul
hedonism makes my mind mature until it takes control
All my morals and beliefs I once time ago trust
Is used against me, until the mysticism turns into dust
Eventually, this turned a world of cliches
Stupid, arrogant, all I know is what sacred hand says
Now I think who betray me next and how I afront this
God is enough, you got me praying on my knees
A small bright appears in front of me
calling me to go even when I don't know what it could be
I've tried to reach until I can see the light
Forced by the arrogance that is my only right
It moves me to my destiny, it moves me to my grave
Praying to divine, imagining that I could be saved
Besieged by my own shade and darkness of the world
It enveloped taking my life to the unknown
My life was short, but my death gonna be eternal
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I whispered - for the gone days
(I chased the sun so many times, I was never able to see the moon)
It drained me - I'm nothing but the dust
(Foolish, I've thought I've lived in eternal noon)
The essence and taste - never turn back
(My breath started to get weak every time I wished to give one more false step)
Thoughts of thoughts - in dissonance
(My knowledge is dying and is not so much )
Chase the sun but it's going away
Lost in your memories, all in faded days
Trapped in a cage of what should it be
All nightmares are coming that won't let you be free
Passed the years, goodbye turned not so hard
Accepting the truth triggers the void inside
It's easy to deny and painful to face life
I chased the sun when I was surrounded by dark
adversity rains all over, fair, unfair, it neverminds
Screaming from the void when myself was blind
I prayed every day and found no more answers
I moved forward, it's late to turn back
I fought so many times against my unswerving fate
Defeated and empty, I remain and await
Tired in this epoch of indifference
The purpose was washed away, all lost its sense
It moves me to my destiny, and to my grave
Praying to divine, imagining I could be saved
Besieged by my own shade and darkness of the world
It enveloped taking my life to the unknown
All for I once fought is lost now
but I haven't regretted what is gone
Breaking my vows and tore my dreams
My body will be ravaged by the streams
by the streams...
So try to chase what you know is going away, the funniest prank you'll ever see
Private in comfort, and walking with no sense, a whole life thinking I was a serious man
So everything I've ever felt is now lost in time
My self and my trace are disappearing like tears in the rain,
Now I only wait for my die, it's the only promise that remains,
and the only fact
And after my wandering, it's my only hope and comfort
Anyway, who needs the light when you're blind?
I never saw the beauty of the night,
until I obtained the sun,
so ...
Chase the sun at night
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6. |
Lone Wanderer
07:17
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"Then I walked to the mountain, nothing more to see, unconsciously I climbed a gentle path, I thought about gone opportunities, how time left me behind and I have less every day.
I arrived at the top, and I prepared my rope in the only tree around, I couldn't help but cry, I cried more than I could imagine, I saw through the perfectly tied rope, it was a beautiful day"
Woke up and found nothing to feel proud
Look how your brightest days befog
What one day you started to build
Now is empty and full of ruins
No direction to turn your head
No perception to believe again
No hope to keep your smile
Your path is out of thy light
Everything you had you took for granted
It changed even when you did the rightness
Is it your fault or who are you gonna blame?
Is it too late to start again?
I fill myself with more doubts
About the peace that I feel once
The storm comes and I've watched all
I pray it to kill me and finish all
Like the coward, I was then and I am now
Take my values and tear them from inside
Probe me one more time I don't care at all
if you gonna fail then you don't have to fear
Another day comes and goes
Forever, it vanishes slow
Infinite path shines out of my grasp
Behind me, everything turned grey
I wish to go too back to when I was a child
And the years auguring a possibility
Before a massive void consumed me
and let me here where every step doesn't count
The time accelerates year after year
And happiness is just an ephemeral
moments I keep in my mind as a treasure
and eventually, they're harder to keep
All our smiles fly away from here
"Forever" turned into a tragedy
What was here doesn't exist anymore
And the time that passes is like blasphemy
Tell me where I should go.
Every direction conduces me where I am now
And I haven't more time to spill
If I want that my life has a sense
I'm turning into a monster
Destroying the essence of myself
Making me get afraid of my reflection
And taking me to hurt my loved ones
I got lost fighting against him
Alone inside me, I turned blind
I just hid my tears in my wrath
impotence that has left me voiceless
I'm too far to become the man I've wished to be
I'm too far from turning back and wish something else
The trace disappears with every wasted second
Every day I don't wanna see what I've become
All that's mine is condemned to disappear?
What can I keep close and what shall I quit?
If I sacrifice something can I keep something invaluable?
At this point, did I have something real?
Is there a destiny that is condemning me?
Is there a god who decided to punish my sins?
Because I'm afraid that reality is simpler
And it could be just the price of my mistakes
my mistakes...
Tired of taking this load with me
Alone across the night
Loading my stupid expectations
Of what everything should be
The tears burn my face
til I can't recognize myself at all
The guy in the mirror
Is not the face I can remember
I
took my arrogance
and fears
and set em fire
on
my coldest night
They still keeping me alive
but should exist
another way...
And the night burned
and the world changed
when I was lost
And
the dreams surely died
I couldn't kill
the reality
I shout to the sky
While stars swear me
Waiting for answers in tears but I still continue,
even knowing I'm gonna die...
Ignorance can teach me to live again?
Or only I need to leave my anger behind?
Is the best to try to forget?
Or ignore my golden wasted years?
Is the best to try to forget?
Or ignore?
When the yearning tore me?
There's a path to follow?
There's really nobody around?
Am I one step closer to nowhere?
I quit to show a smile to hide my distress
I need your help to go outside of this place
I try to understand this imperfect world
I'm accepting my life in the absurd
And now I don't care where should I go
I can't change anything but I can move on
I feel free to continue what I've started
Unlearning pointless grief nailed to my back
And I can go anywhere I want
coz there's no path
Can I make something wonderful
or waste my potential?
I was walking with closed eyes along a traced line
A live in fear and regret, I forget I am alive
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